Hello. Again.

It's been a long time. Well over a year since I posted here. I'm not sure if anyone reads this blog or if it is something that anyone wonders about.

And yet, here I am. Again.

I lost my dad a year and a half ago (almost).

It's been hard. The hardest thing I have experienced on so many levels.

I'm sure I will share more about it eventually, but for now, I'm only ready to share a few bits here and there.

Grief is intense, mystical, confusing, and frustrating.

There is no roadmap through it and everyone reacts differently to it.

It is multi-layered, intense, and yet completely invisible, all at the same time.

In the last year and a half, I have experienced lows and highs.

Yet, the experiences still feel different. Happy or sad, funny or not.

It all feels slightly like I'm moving under water.

My writing has been basically non-existent.

Well, the writing that I am used to.

The brightest spot in my world lately has been my ability to teach yoga and meditation.

This is where I go when I need...

Well, just need to be.

And it's where I can write.

Sometimes I don't feel like it is me writing because I rely heavily on the teachings of Yoga, but it is me writing the words of strength and guidance.

I've started a YouTube page of meditations to help others.

You can check it out here, if you're interested.

I've also began teaching Yoga.

It gives me life.

Yes, I get paid for it but it feeds my soul.

The brightest spot.

I mentioned that already.

In any case, there's a lot more to share but for the first time today, I was inspired to write.

So, I'll post it while I'm feeling inspired to be more open about what I am feeling.

And I am also going to post a couple other writings that I did before my dad passed away.

They hit differently now but I still think they're worth sharing.

Again, grief is a unique experience for everyone.

I've missed doing this.

I've grown.

I've cried. A lot.

And yet, I am still moving forward.

I hope the writer in me comes to life again.

I'm giving it time.

And I hope you will to.

Thanks for crossing this long bridge with me.

Until next time -

Xo,

Bridgette